"Right now, QA team is plotting to assassinate my superlatively delayed promotion prospects, my girl friend has broken up once for all, and people that I work with may be involved in both. I’m software engineer Dheeraj Pandey. Today is going to be the longest day of my life."
The following happens from 12.a.m to 1 a.m on the day of code deployment.
For now you should know, I almost chew the cigarette in the carnal want for a lighter. My friend back apartment is finishing up my bottle of exclusive scotch. I have been informed that security have been beefed up on the only route I know from office to home.(How do I drive back without being loaded?). By home, I recall, recently, my family and new extended family have thrown all their resources and been flexing all muscles to get me married. The kids have not been spared of the ultimate gyana of "the most important ensuing event in their small world". FYI- I love kids- so kins are playing the tricks of the classic mafiaso.
How everything has rendered itself much importance, is because the appraisal feedback closes soon, so any bugs logged today would have laid parasitic eggs in my nest of promotion. I have become hopelessly romantic with idea of romance.
Since, fate threw me into the profession; I have never seen any hike or title change ever in my little professional life. So, it’s supposed to be vital.
I had to stay back late after finishing the code and deployment because QA had to retest some pieces, and since they had to stay put- It was my moral responsibility to stay back to see them through.
I didn’t quite convince them thatit’s like chasing dog's tail. What if there is something else toxic round there?
Whatever- world is not without anomalies. We kind of agree to disagree.
I am Dheeraj, SE at a consulting firm; people still think meeting is the best proxy for delaying deliverables, where life of all species around me have different view of how to make it click.
Working late hours! Spending hours in something that doesn’t matter! Bullying! Flattering!. Having a rollicking drink with the boss, and what not. All in the game!
When it boils to the person I am- if I know myself well- that’s all I need to know. So there are no rights and no wrongs in the “sensible” world. Philosophy aside!!
The truth remains! Hard, fast, right in face materialism.
So, I managed to confuse a bunch of people working with me- bulldozed them with military interjections, dazzled them with the subject area they had no idea about, bored them with the technical aspects that no-one had mastery of. Well, that didn’t mean I know it. It just implied I am smart because you have no idea.
I somehow managed to have a cut-over, managed to find my name among the achievers and creditors - just because i was present, physically. Just because there were people around me more confused, more lost.
Now the hour is gone and I thought was it only 24 minutes, 24 hrs, 24 years? Or just keep it vague at best- eternity....?
"Right now, I am plotting to continue my superlatively delayed socialistic prospects. My life quotient has dipped to its abyss once for all, and people who care for me for whatever reason, still have lot of faith in me. People I mean for- don't figure me in their sketch anywhere. I am just another lost individual Dheeraj Pandey., not sure how to carry the responsibility of the asset called life. Drained, lost, cribbing, and trying to disapprove axioms! Everyday is going to be the longest day of my life, I suppose"
Hopelessly Hopeless
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\m/ rocking, humorous , honest , sweet!!